Easter

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." 

Jeremiah 29:11

Every holiday that comes and goes is such a mix of emotions. Complete sadness that we are celebrating another "first" without Rob, and then relief that we survived it. Just like every holiday, I think to last year and what we were doing. Last year at Easter, we were at the ranch hanging out with Rob the whole time. We all went to church. Rob and I took Emma and Ethan to the Big Barn to take pics. We were making plans for the future, for when Matt and I moved back closer to home. Rob couldn't decide whether to go back to Texas or try and get a job wherever Matt and I landed. We were hoping for the latter so we could spend more time with him.  This was definitely not in our plans.

Sometimes I just want to scream at the way things work out. But I have to have faith and trust that God has bigger plans for Rob than he could fulfill here on earth.  And through Jesus' resurrection, we are promised an eternal life in a place where there will be no more pain and sorrow. But for now, I still wish I could see him one more time.

Rob's spot over the hill from Mom and Dad's house. He built this when he was around 12 and maintained it throughout the years.